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So.. hm. I'm gonna update in my Xanga whenever I comment in another person's Xanga. :O!!! Only because I'm cool and suave like that.. and this basically means "Anytime I comment in Bri's Xanga, I'll update my own Xanga," seeing as she's the only Xanga I comment in, really... o.o OOOOH WELL ENOUGH BABBLING. : continues with entry :

All weekend I spent my days (and nights) at Dan's house (as always).

Friday, afterschool, I met up with Carlos near NFA and we went to the Planned Parenthood-type place (we didn't know it wasn't the actual clinic and felt so gay and stupid, but hey, you can't blame us, it was our first time). We stood  outside so nervous and scared and Carlos was saying "Just go with Ashley blah blah.." But I finally got him to go and we knocked on the door and the lady told us there was a real Planned Parenthood clinic on Dubois St. and handed us a bag of condoms just in case. Lol. So we just led a cab and went to my house. When we got there we had pizza. Ashley came over and then later on we had my mom drop us off at the mall. I got the shirt I wanted and eyeliner (which costs WAY too fucking much these days x.x) and then we met up with this guy Eric that Carlos, Dan & people are friends with and he payed for all four of us to take a cab to Dan's. When we got there nothing exciting happened. I met a couple - Jimmy & Dawna. They are so adorble - both of them - and Jimmy is hilarious. Jimmy, Dawna, Carlos & I had a little orgy and I had fried chicken at like 3 AM because DJ payed for it for me. :) So it's all good.

Saturday, Jimmy & Dawna left. It was basically a lazy fucking day. But at night Carlos, Dan, Ashley & I were supposed to go to Dawna's house to drink with Jimmy & Dawna, but I didn't want to go, Ashley didn't want to go, which cause Carlos not wanting to go, which cause Dan not being able to go. Then Carlos remembered Jimmy had had his hoodie, so he was determined to get it back.. Dan didn't go because he was too tired and comfortable where he was. I finally decided to go with Carlos because I had a feeling he would take 8745485748574897451 years to get back to Dan's house and I was expecting him to be all "Okay, I'll drink with you guys." and come back late as fuck, drunk off his ass. So, I was all "Fuck that asshole" and walked up with him so I wouldn't be up all night pissed, depressed, and worried. When we got there, I let Carlos choose if he wanted to stay and drink with them or not (even though I really wanted to leave). So, I was in Dawna's room watching Jimmy & Carlos play the guitars that were there, together, for five minutes while Dawna went out to get liquor. She came back with a six pack of Bacardi silver, Bacardi Berry, a 22. of Smirnoff Green Apple, & Mike's Hard Lemonade in razberry & the regular kind. I don't really favor the Mike's Hard at all. Though I've never tried the regular lemonade. The Smirnoff was good. Bacardi silver tasted alot like 7-up and vodka mixed only more 7-Up-y.. and BACARDI BERRY IS MY FAVORITE ALCOHOLIC BEVERAGE EVER.  So, we watching Comedy Central and drank. By the time I was on my second Bacardi I was felling the tipsy/drunk feeling and it was the time Theresa, Megan, Parisi & Redner made a surprise visit. :/ I didn't favor their company. I would've been okay, I guess, with just Parisi & Redner, but I really don't like being around Theresa & Megan... well Megan's cool, but I dunno... :/ Oh well. When we left it was like 2 AM or something... Dawna was pissed because he mom was pissed and yeah. blah. It was fun but I could've enjoyed it if I wasn't drunk around the four people that came to Dawna's unplanned. Dawna was even kinda pissed about it.

Today, well, blah. Nothing exciting. When Theresa & Megan came over, I went in the shower and so did Carlos. :P We got out. I was bored, wanted to go to Dunkin Donuts. Carlos wasn't allowing that to happen.. so he had Redner go with me because he didn't want to go himself.. but I waited for like two hours while he fucked around with Megan & Theresa, but they had to go at five and that was when he was ready. So, whatever. I went up with Carlos (as he said he would in a few hours). We got back to Dan's. Blah blah gobble. Then, his friend Nick called all saying "Blah, I wanna try shit with you. I'm bi." Carlos automatically assumed I wanted to see it since I'm always saying I want him to makeout with Redner & Dan. But whatever. It's only certain people so he signed me up to go for a ride with Nick & himself. But I told him I didn't want to see that and that I didn't want to go. so he just goes off with Nick for like 20 - 30 minutes. I called a cab within that time because I wasn't sure when Carlos would be back and was pissed for him just leaving me like that just because his friend called. Whatever. I was also pissed that he might cheat on me with that asshole. WHATEVER. gkrngkler. Uh.. yeah.. he came back and I cancelled my cab because he wished I would. So I did. He had me go outside to talk to him. I did. We went inside because I was cold. We faught in the kitchen in front of Parisi. Even thoug he apologized, I wasn't feeling it. But I eventually calmed myself down because I know how much a stupid bitch I am and I know how much I overreact sometimes because of past events. So whatever. We made up, then I had to go home for real.

Here I am. Safe and not angry at Carlos anymore.  Next weekend I have plans to get drunk with Dawna & Jimmy again. Should be pretty cool, I'm hoping. Also, I think this is my last week on probation. YES. SCORE. WOO.

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Wow... six months come next month.

Yes, yes. I finally LOVE him. I thought I would never love again and wow. This is my longest relationship I've had yet. It actually feels like we'll be together forever :knock on wood: I hope I didn't just jinx myself. Ah, well. I couldn't have, right? It wasn't a statement, really. It was a professed feeling.

Jenny has recently been trying to get back into our friendship because of Carlos's fucking mouth. Er. She wrote me this stupid note and Chris gave it to me at lunch last week. I wrote back and she wrote back again. She's so fucking ugh. She really pisses me off. In the notes she's trying WAY too hard to seem smart. Blah. With her stupid "twas"'s and shit. WTF? I mean, saying "twas" doesn't necisarilly mean you're smart. It just makes you look all 1800's and fucking err. I'm gonna shut up because now I'm ranting about the word "twas" whatever. Blah.

Ashley's doing fine. We've been fading a little bit. Being a little distant back with each other, but we're still going strong. We call each other, just not as much as we used to, considering she now lives in Cornwall and I'm always with Carlos now and at Dan's over the weekend.

You know what pisses me off? How Michael calls Carlos and he's all blah with him now even though him, Adam & whoever the fuck (prolly Jenny) made up this STUPID, IMMATURE little "club-type-thing" that was all anti-Carlos and they talked shit about him and were all proud about it and shit and now all of a sudden, the one day, in my room, Michael calls him and they're all cool and shit again. WTF? I mean, what-the-fucking-fuck, man?!

Which leads me to Saturday night. When Carlos got a call from his aunt/uncle to do a job with them because I guess once in a while he works for/with them and gets paid. He said it wouldn't take long... I don't hear from him for HOURS. Angela (Dan's sister) calls him on her cell phone for me, turns out HE'S WITH MICHAEL. WTF? He was there until like 10/11PM and he left Dan's at like 9AM saying he'll be back soon. SOON MY ASS. He YET AGAIN pulls his shit. I'm prolly overreacting and being a bad girlfriend for this, but don't you think that's a little bad considering that he was going to spend the weekend with me and then says he'll be back soon and just decides to go to Michael's just because he called him up. And another thing is Dan has no phone & I have no cell phone. I was lucky to hear ANYTHING from the bastard because Angela, Anthony, & their son showed up and she offered to call Carlos for me.
         AND YOU KNOW WHAT? He had the NERVE to come and tell me it wasn't his fault. He told me "Oh, Adam (or Ryan.. I don't remember who he said it was) decided to drive us to Middletown to check out a drummer. I honestly didn't know it would take that long." Bullshit. Not your fault, my white ass.

I'm just gonna shut up now because I'm seriously getting pissed again.

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OK. It's been FOREVER since I've updated. Woah. Ok.... So, yeah. Anthony and I dated for five months, but broke up because it wasn't working for me. It was like a prude relashionship and it only felt like we were just best friends. And, look, today, we ARE best friends. So, after him, I went out with my (now good friend) Alex. He broke up with me after like a week or two of dating because of some rumor that I loved some other guy (which wasn't true, I like Alex ALOT and I didn't know at the time that that is why he broke it off). After him... I dated another guy named Bryan. He was young and immature. After a month of dating him, I broke up with him, then a day later we went back out for like a week, then I broke it off again. After him.... came... Matt "Mookie" Daniels. He was my first love ever. I love him alot. He broke my heart so bad and we had only been dating for a month (pathetic, I know). It was bad. He cheated on me with some chick, Kim. Whatever. After that, I had this friends-with-benifets thing with Alex. Then, I don't know. I had a date with this one guy, Pedro (we're still friends) but I wasn't that into him. I still needed to get over Matt. Blah blah. I met this amazing guy, chris, who was mookie's friends, that came down from South Carolina during the summer. He used me. Blah. Went back to South Carolina. BUT I got to see my bestest friend Bri, who came down from Maryland. :) Um... after that, yeah... I met this guy, Carlos, who's Mookie's best friend. He fell in love with me and blah. We're currently dating (has been two months since yesterday). I'm scared to tell him I love him this early, and honestly I don't know. Three people (him included) have told me that I'm in love. But I really don't know. Oh well. Hm...

My friend, Jenny, has this 20-something year-old loser boyfriend she's been dating for 5 or 6 months, that babysits his cousins for a living and doesn't go to school. He has no job. And she has deserted all her real friends for that guy. She has backstabbed me for the third time by doing this and now I'm hoping the worst for her (even though that's bad and I know I'm  going to get something back for this, but she should too for what she's done).

Um, well, that's a quick update on my life. My daily journal is over at livejournal, now.

http://www.livejournal.com/users/xoxpuppet

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Hey! It's been a while. Thought I'd stop by anyways. >.> Yeah, everything's ok I guess. Have a boyfriend, for those of you who don't know that by now. We've been dating for 3 months and his name is Anthony. He's great. Has really nice hair too. ; x I cut my hair up to my collarbone and it is dyed black!  I love it. It's pretty. Um.. what else? Oh, yeah! I'm in a new band called Our Faded Wonderland. I play acoustic guitar and lead singer. I need to start practicing in my normal singing voice from now on. xD I'm getting too used to this Cartman on. O.o So, is anyone interested in me posting in here once in a while? I have two other journals over at Livejournal and Deadjournal and I barely write in them. This one is simple, but no one is complaining about me writing in here, so that's why I don't. Just comment and everytime I get a comment, I will post. See you.

XoXo-Brandi